Random-ness

[If ZDL won "2002 Astro Talent Quest", then he can be called 'Astro boy'.] – Serene Low, 27 november 2009. LOL. Sry i was bein v random, one day if i meet him, i’ll tell him of  my wonderful invention. If n Wen.

Wu jiahui reminds me of someone i see on quite a wkly basis.

I “tattoo” a panda face of my dad’s arm today. He n his big mouth who said “draw la, draw somemore” wen i first landed my pen on his arm. So i continued drawin until i finished, n he got a shock. Bt it’s cute, n so i’ll upload e pic wen i feel like it.

Meanwhile, stay random.

New trashy flavour

It’s really trash man. I always wondered, hw come dere’s no chocolate flavoured yogurt. Nw i noe y, becoz e taste is juz trashy, totally juz weird.

I mixed a brand of chocolate ice-cream n plain marigold yogurt, coz i like both. N i always wanted to melt chocolate den mix tgt, bt always no choco or no time. So wen i had time today, i tried. Man, it taste weird. Gd ting, i’m smart enuf nt to mix my whole cup of yogurt, if nt cannot enjoy e plain milky taste of yogurt.

Hmmmmm, plain milky yogurt, i love it.

 

Things r nt as they seem

I heard frm M dat her car gt banged becoz someone was tailgatin her. N e someone was her fren, G. Den everybody muz be tinkin, “hw come she gt such a bad habit?” Wait. E ting is G juz got her license 1 mnth ago, so it’s nt totally her fault for tailgating, coz inexperience. N becoz she only gt her license 1 mnth ago, she duno hw to see road situations, she only follow e car in front literally, who hpns to be M.

N hw G banged into M was becoz e car in front of M suddenly stopped, so M has to stop rite? Den becoz G was tailgating, she couldnt stop in time. N e whole time, e traffic situation was quite heavy as well.

M wasnt wrong to break. G wasnt totally wrong to tailgate, becoz she’s inexperienced in drivin on e road n was followin ppl. N it wasnt e traffic’s fault.

So who’s fault? Nobody. Bt e tricky part comes, wen G has to pay for e damage done to M’s car. ”Jiang qian shang gan qing” – Money spoils e frenship, in fact money spoils everyting (look wat it did to e financial market last yr? bt e funny ting is, we cant live w/out money. Contradiction!)

Wat would u do? (let’s discuss, pls reply to e post)

Wat would i do? Talk easy, bt do difficult. Go back consult Dee first den see wat he say. Aft dat, if i haf to, i’ll tell my fren straight in e face dat he/she has to pay.

Wat did M do? She told G dat she has to pay. Bt was v frank in sayin dat, “if she wasn’t her fren, she would juz claim insurance”. True. Becoz e fella’s premium will go higher e nxt time round aft clamini insurance. Bt if G dun wan to pay cash to e workshop, M only has to claim insurance, den G has to suffer by payer higher premium. Bt thankfully G agreed to pay. So dat’s gd.

 All comes down to EQ. Bt some tings, if u haf to say it face-to-face, den u haf to do it. Dr Yeap say “whether gd or bad, juz go n confront”. Hmm, God let me learn to confront in a more EQ manner. I tink my EQ is relatively gd, juz dat i dun sugar-coat my words (which is nt wrong). Bt apparently EQ is knowing wat to say at e rite time. So mayb my EQ is still nt dere yet. Bt i’m honest, except some tings i haven been totally honest abt it.

Faith without works is nothing

Was readin Dot’s wordpress blog n i read ”Faith without works is nothing”.

N her whole explain on it was juz wat i needed. ” Faith without works is nothing (indeed). All that ‘praying and crying out to God’ were nothing until someone actually went to deal with the problem. Sometimes in life, we always sit back, relax and “go in faith” without wanting to lift a finger to help etc. but if we dont do anything about the issue or situation, the problem will still remain. But in CHRIST, I can do everything, states Seng 2009)- dot familiar? HAHAHA.

N i tot dat was a very nice ting to say, for someone like me. I guess a lot of times we tink dat God will literally work on our behalf w/out movin an inch. Ppl, juz get ur backside off e seat n start movin coz God will work on ur behalf bt nt to be taken literally. U need e effort to do sth, if nt yes e prob still remain.

Rmb my clashin classes? I had to move my hands so many times, frm e 1st time, i couldnt get e class. Den my classes clashed i email e academic advisor bt result came back negative. “Trust” is e word i told myself. N my frens advice me to email e overal in-charge of Psy, n ta-dah i got it. I even told myself “aiya i shld haf juz change e class first den add, liddat sure gt place.” Bt i tink no difference, becoz for all u noe, wen u wanna add e class, den u wont get e desired class, no difference. Bt i kept tellin myself “Trust”. I haf spoken over e situation n i believe my God haf kept a space for me.

Den again, wat’s urs will be urs. Wat’s nt urs will nv be urs, insistin will ony make matters worse (dat advice goes out to relationships too). Anyway wat Dot said in dat para make sense.

I haf an heated argument w someone recently n i felt so frustrated, i cried(becoz it will haf an impact on me in e very near future). Den i watched e video on sat, n it spoke to me, i duno y bt i juz stood dere n cried. I kept tellin God “God i duno y am i cryin, juz makes no sense. E movie has touched me, bt wat is e significance?” Den Uncle Ban brought me to e front (before dat i was still sayin to God, “God i duno y am i cryin, pls ask Uncle Ban to pray for me).

Spot on. He said e movie has touched me n blah blah blah. N he also said dat God will hold my hand n walk into e future w me. Actually i din understand bt i roughly noe. Den ytd nite i prayed, i say(sth like) ”God i dun tink it is by coincidence dat i suddenly haf such a great interest in ___. N i believe dat e time ting dat we went thru few mnths back is nt coincidence as well. Dere has to be some truth in it. Bt anyway i’m gg to trust u even if it’s hard n tings doesnt seem to be e way i wan”.

Yes, dat was wat i’m frustrated. Becoz someone denied my efforts of studyin n if i wan to join _______, it’ll be v hard for me to fight my case, if all e person does is deny every effort of mine to study. Den i gone case already. Dead, u noe wat i mean?

E person juz dun understand dat becoz i pay attention in class, i noe wat e lecturer is sayin, therefore i dun haf to keep studyin n studyin. I sometimes purposely study wen e fella is ard, bt no. E person still can “i nv see u study one”. OMG! U expect me to study under ur watchful eyes, 24/7 till e day i die?! DANG!. I so wanted to tell e person, “i will get all A for u to see”, bt i stopped myself. I will nt feed e fella’s insatiable appetite for As, no way, liddat everytime i dun get, den i’ll be facin rejection. So no, i’m nt gg to feed dat addiction.

N dat’s y i was frustrated abt it. It’s nt like i dun wan to get A, tell me, who dun wan to get A? E fella muz be a nut-case if he/she doesnt wan an A. Den if i wanna join _____, e fella doesnt recognize my efforts of study, sure find fault w me one. OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Hence, i so needed e prayer. N So faith w/out works is nothing. I will still go ahead w my plans, only dat i’ll juz briefly mention my plans to them. Den aft dat, God will intervene on my behalf, in terms of results n contract wise (if i get it).

Confession of a shopaholic (rationalization)

Me. Oh my my. Sad to say, Serene has to ask her dad to buy her a bag, coz she’s broke. After buyin a pair of boots and a jacket (which has ytd to come), a on sale dress n another romper, she’s broke for e month. Bt even sadder to say, she wants to buy 2 bag. Both of which is of great use. One for sch(which she already retired one, n may haf to retire another one soon, which is ZERO sch bags, coz gt another one which cannot match all clothes, only seclective one, den hw to use as sch bag?), e other one for gai-gai. Dun tell me get only one, i wont use my gai gai bag for sch unless it’s old, as of nw, none of my gai-gai bag is old. So still zero. I tink v long already. Both i will use to e max. Unless sponsor anyone? Sms me pls.

BT BT BT, i found an excuse. If i spend more tis mnth, den nxt mnth i dun haf to spend, coz everyting will arrive nxt mnth, means i gt new tings for my bday month. Dat is my rationalization for spendin more tis mnth.

Meanwhile, DADDY~! heh heh heh.

I’m a sucker for everyting nice.

Phew

E last essay – argumentative is e most time n effort consumin essay in e whole of  esl 407.

I love doin argumentative in sec sch, i would attempt to do argumentative for essays writin durin tests n exam. Cant rmb if i did argumentative for o lvls, bt dat’s becoz e point. I actually quite like writin agrumentative.

HOWEVER…

My opinion on argumentative is changed completely. Becoa aft spendin 3.5 hr on wed to do a 1st draft, 3 hrs on thurs to complete it (i was so into it dat i forgotten i had psy notes to type, until i realized today wen i ope my file, lol) n 3 hrs ytd to pick up e ‘broken’ pieces. All in all, i spent abt 10 hrs juz to finish my argumentative essay.

Before dat, my illustration, classification, process writing essay, i tink all these add up to be 10 hrs. Bt juz one argumentative can make me sit in front of e comp for 10 hrs, is powderful. I’m shudder at e tot of  esl408.

Of coz, i muz thank Dot specially for gg thru my essay w me para by para, e help is greatly appreciated. I tink i would die if nt for Dot. Becoz all e other frens gave advice, nt practical action of helpin me edit e points n really point out e mistakes one by one. They give advice like, “oh i dun understand ur essay” ( ya dat helps if u cant tell me which part u dun understand or like y e essay is messy). Bt i haf another fren who was so direct dat my essay is quite bad, den apologize for it. i had to tell him “it’s ok i rather u be direct w me den my tcher to fail me”. LOL

N Dot, u haf selflessly gave up e time u could haf used for practisin for ur piano exam, i noe God sees it n He will honour u for bein such a great fren =D I thank God for u.

N yes, if i ask for ur opinion, i’m nt afraid to hear wat u haf to say. I tink i’m intimidatin dat ppl tink twice abt tellin e truth. Bt if i dare to ask, i dare to hear. If i din ask, keep it to urself. LOL

Laughin is

Tired business if u’re me. When i laugh, i really laugh. Den like gt laughin gas, cannot stop. Den it goes on for 5 mins. HAHA. Oh man, i’m quite embarassed, coz i laugh dam loud. gdness.! Pls dun tell me to laugh softer, coz i duno hw to. I noe my frens r super embarass wen i laugh out loud (it’s an understatement btw), bt i duno hw to laugh softly. Too bad. Blame it on my powerful lungs.

Ms Low is quite powerful. One side, her fren is tellin her dat her essay is not substantial enuf (n it’s sth to be fearful of, coz it’s a graded essay for my eng mod), e other side she’s lookin at bags. Althou at e beginnin wen her fren told her dat e essay is quite messy, her heart did pump faster n harder. Bt aft dat, she’s back to shoppin (n she’s aimed at some). HAHAHA. So idiot, i mean me! Bt den again, life is too long to be taken so seriously. Nt dat i’m nt concerned, bt i like bein nice to myself.

Laugh more.

Touchin n amazin testimony to give.

God is strong n faithful, n my words can n will haf power over everyting.

Rmb i said abt prophesyin over e classes i want for nxt sem? I GOT IT. All glory n honour be to God. The process is nv easy, a lot of trustin.

1) On e day of biddin for all freshman, i was giddy (of in fact e whole wk, n a bit of e nxt wk) n i missed e time for biddin. So wen i got up (late), dere was no space for the gd classes. Y gd? Becoz it would mean i haf 3 day sch wk. Bt anyway i missed.

(before dat e nxt biddin, i wrote down e classes i wan to be enrolled in on a pc of pp, n i said over them “u will haf a space for me in jesus’ name”, ok i felt s-t-u-p-i-d talkin to a pc of pp. Bt bible says dat there is power in words, so i did. N aft dat I prayed, kiasu n desperate. )

2) On e nxt biddin day whr all student fight for places, i missed e “gd timin” becoz i had to add one more module n dat actually ‘rob’ me of my chance of gettin e ‘gd’ class, becoz e website has to load. N wen it load, other ppl started snappin up e places. Disappointed bt somehw i kept tellin myself to trust in God. So e timetable dat i haf actually clashes, becoz i would haf to spilt myself into 2 to attend 2 diff lectures.

3) I emailed our academic advisor on my situation. Bt she gave a negative reply for it. I told my fren n she told me to wait, sure gt space and also to email e overall in-charge of the degree prog.

4) I did wat my fren adviced, i email e overall in-charge, tellin her of my situation n everyting on wednesday. Fri nite i checked my email, she changed to my desired class, so i dun haf to spilt myself into 2.

YES! E whole time i kept tellin myself to trust, watever doubt i had, i told myself TRUST. Nw see, i got wat i wanted, God is a strong God.

K-ing

My whole ”kbox” life, i haf only gone to kbox w someone else, HZ. Always like gg w her, coz i end up singing more songs than her. HAHAHA, juz kiddin. Today I alone sang 31 songs, excludin hers. I finally rmb to count e number of songs.

Always enjoy singin w her. N i sung till my voice turned hoarse, for some weird reason. N she’s beginnin to like my Prince wearin white. She say “aye he look v nice in white ar”. OF coz, my Prince u’re talkin abt.

But u noe wat i’m tinkin of? I’m tinkin of gg kbox alone, ONE DAY. Den i can sing myself all e songs for like 4 hrs straight. Enjoy myself. Juz ONE DAY, aft i’m done tinkin abt wat can hpnn e possible reasons to convince myself. Heh heh heh. Yi ge ren de ktv.

Respect is earned, same goes for marks.

If u deserved e marks, i’ll let u haf it. Bt e ting is, if my comment for all e supportin para is e same, den wat marks do u deserve? U can tell me u spent 1 hr on it, i spent 3 hrs on mine. So who deserves more effort mark. U’re lucky, i may give u one tight slap across e face.

In class, i already told him his para dun haf evidence. Bt no, ppl still like to keep sayin n sayin, Gd, give it to him. [Doesnt mean i keep quiet means i'm agree to wat u say. nope. I keep quiet becoz i noe if i say sth, it wont be nice. Bt some ppl juz dun take e chance, wat to do? Open e mouth n shoot back lor]. Anyway i tink if Ms V were to mark his pp, she would give him a zero too.

I mean seriously! U noe watever or nt u did well or nt, u would haf a rough idea. If u put in 1 hr of effort n expect great results, sry, it’s nt gg to hpn. I put in 3 hrs n my review isnt dat pretty as well, only dat i tink my peer was bein nice to me, dat’s y it’s prettier than it shld be.

See kylie, i told u he’s nt jokin. He kept harpin on e fact. No self-evaluation still dare to point fingers. Tis type of ppl, i haf no comments. He kept sayin, no respect. So is dat respectin me? OBVIOUSLY NT.

I exploded nt becoz i’m impulsive. I toleranted v long. I avoided him, tried v hard to hear wat he’s sayin. Bt some ppl’s EQ is juz zero like his marks, so tis type of ppl, i let him haf it. It will make him shut up. I really din explode on impulse. It was e max of my tolerance. Becoz he dun haf self-evaluation. Questionable.

I mus learn hw nt to blabber wen i shoot someone, becoz dat’s very unintelligent. I muz speak clearly n to e point, so e fella would noe n shut up. Tis goes out to everybody else oso. Tink of wat u wan to say wen u haf e chance to “explode”, dun blabber only to tink back later dat u still haf a lot to say, too late n nt healthy. A bit sry to raise my voice, bt some ppl dun haf self-evaluation nvm, still duno when to shut up. Only by raisin voice will he listen. Gd, give it to him.

AHHH!